Monday, June 16, 2008


Deep down, I have always known that knights in shining armor and charming princes astride white horses can't possibly exist, at least not in this--my dimension. And in the interest of being pragmatic, I have always betted on the guy who tells me he'll get his shit together and come through for me, for us. And I have never questioned this as anything other than the law of nature, self-evident and intrinsically worthwhile.

But now, I am forced to rethink every single thing I have held to be true. And all of it debunks the myths I have culled from years of playing by the rules of the Human Interaction Stock Exchange.

Needless to say, I am utterly lost, totally, without a doubt lost. And it's too late to send out a distress call. The world, as far as I'm concerned, has shut itself off. I have yet to discover hope, to learn the nuances of faith, to understand the magic, if not the futility of miracles.

Monday, June 9, 2008


How you said, "Next time, I promise to love you first."
And how you told me, "I will look for you and you cannot hide from me."
Or how you stared into my eyes as if to say, "Not even lifetimes can keep us apart."

I believed it all.

How I waited. And waited some more.
Because here I was, and there you were.
So close and yet worlds apart.

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Cognitive Dissonance

I think that it's unfair to burden me with your expectations. I'm not nor would I ever be the perfect girl. My flaws--they number by the thousands and multiply by the second, which in time would exponentially saw off the edges of our souls.

The package, you see, is deceiving. The littlest eyes that hide behind the glasses, they process people, pets, plants, streets, and groceries by a five-minute filtering system, devoid of political correctness or any belief system.

And the challenge for you, is not to reconcile what you uphold to be real with what is. The challenge is to stay, just stay until you have mapped out the paradoxes, the inner cathedral of my being.

The challenge is to stop leaving. Stop leaving and stay with me...

Friday, June 6, 2008

Love Will Keep Us Together

"Have you been gargling with bong water?"

"Love to! Love the bag, love the shoes, love everything. Love to!" (Okay, this one is actually from My Best Friend's Wedding, but what the heck, I love this clip.)

Monday, June 2, 2008


quote. –verb (used with object)
to repeat (a passage, phrase, etc.) from a book, speech, or the like, as by way of authority, illustration, etc. (quote. Unabridged (v 1.1). Random House, Inc. (accessed: June 01, 2008).)

cauterize. –verb (used with object), -ized, -iz·ing.
to burn with a hot iron, electric current, fire, or a caustic, esp. for curative purposes; treat with a cautery. (cauterize. Unabridged (v 1.1). Random House, Inc. (accessed: June 01, 2008).)

1. There was a moment last night, when she was sandwiched between the two Finnish dwarves and the Maori tribesmen, where I thought, "Wow, I could really spend the rest of my life with this woman."--Zoolander

2. I happen to know everything there is to know about maple syrup. I love maple syrup! I love maple syrup on pancakes, I love it on pizza! I love to take maple syrup and put a little bit in my hair when I've had a rough week. What do you think holds it up slick?--Wedding Crashers

3. Dude, I service society by rocking. I’m out there on the front lines liberating people with my music. Rocking ain’t no walk in the park, lady.--School of Rock

4. "Heart... miles and miles of heart."--The Replacements

5. Death cannot stop true love. All it can do is delay it for a while.--Princess Bride

(quoterized v.2. to follow)

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